I realized, while we were visiting my friend in her home in the woods of Asheville, North Carolina, a lot of things about myself. It was quite a life-changing visit, actually. I remembered a lot of things I want– like local food, a garden, a simple, bright home, access to woods and music and festivals, a community of like-minded folk, artists, musicians, and people engaged in and excited about their lives, working together to create a city they want to raise their children in. I remembered how much I enjoyed living in Missoula, Montana, the college town where Matt and I met and spent years meeting cool people and doing interesting things in the community. I remembered the way my old friend used to (and did again during our visit) help me see past my own bubble of a world, let go, and live with a more expansive vision of what’s possible. I had forgotten about some of those parts of my life, of myself, it seems, over the past several years, and especially after these last two years of Navy change and breast cancer. I’ve been looking for these pieces of myself, and finally I may have rediscovered them, for now.
At first I thought maybe I should move asap to this town or one like it and start having my dream, and though I still want to do that (in fact, I’m planning on it), I am realizing that I can still live those purposes and do my best to create the life I want right here where I’m planted. There are amazing people and interesting opportunities all around me, right now. So while I hold my vision of the place I want to be, I will practice creating that life, however I can, now.